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I'll float above the ocean.
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Tue, Jan. 6th, 2004 03:42 am
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Im just that bored. Public entry time. My eye=a whole lot better.myspace is down til 5 am so im bored out of my mind. (journal entry skips around because Ive been typing it for an hour and half Im just typing random shit. that and im getting up and doing stuff)
Yesterday=more fun than anything possible. Adam=soooo nice to me. It was so nice. We first went to Lupe's because im so lazy, I never want to cook food for myself, after that we went to Ventura yesterday because theres a shitload to do in Thousand Oaks...::looks around:: I convinced him to drive to Ventura even though he's gotten so little sleep. We went to the Pier where we just sat there. Talked. Made out. (not in front of people) Then we went to the main street, bank of books (my fave book store in the entire world ::bonar::) then the sex shop (woooooo 2nd date yeah lets go to the sex shop) Ben and Jerry's (I got hooked up there the guy working was so nice) Back to TO just sat around talking. Hardcore making out. Then home.
Yes its so nice having a "boyfriend" if you can call him that. We have moved up to dating. He does like me and I do like him. I know he likes me because he told me.I like just sitting in his truck, its so roomy. (Lol it really is though.Not that kind of roomy but roomy as in when I sit I have a lot of space...yeah Im gonna stop explaining its a Dodge Ram 1500 ok??) I like it when we hold hands when he drives. I like it when he gives me a little kiss on the cheek. I've missed those things. I like just holding hands and walking down the street. (thats the part ive missed the most not having a boyfriend since June) I like it when he tells me the stupidest joke's I have ever heard in my entire life. I love how is Uncle is BIFF FROM BACK TO THE FUTURE!! lol its true!!! You don't know how much I love those movies. Im gonna tag along with him to his family reunions. :) I told him when I first met him that Drummers always have been my best friends. Theres something about drummers, I always get along with them. I can't believe that when I first met him, I was so annoyed at him. Maybe thats because whenever I meet people I get super annoyed by them quickly but then I just realize how much I do enjoy them because I am a nerd like that. I really really like how he can totally take my sarcastic humor and how he dishes it back at me. I really like that part. He totally burns me but I really like it. I like how smart he is, and when I took him to bank of books he went straight for Vonnegut. (mmm Vonnegut so good) I like how he makes me listen to new music. I like how he isn't about dressing scene. He's about the music and playing it. ( A picture from bank of books when he discovered a book he's been looking for ) I told him tonite that I feel safe with him. Which is true. I feel safeeeeee. Im just so happy. I dont want this happiness high to end. I also love how he runs into me on purpose because I cant see out of my eye all the time. I like how ticklish he is. He is so incredibly ticklish it amazes me. I like how he hates mushrooms yet loves onions yet I love mushrooms and hate onions. I like how he drives 25 mins from his house to see me. Theres so many things I dont even know about him yet though. I like how he doesnt really like pirates yet he went to see peter pan with me. I like how he doesnt have to pay for me for anything. I like paying for myself. I like how he was amazed when i gave him 10 bucks for gas. I like how he always puts his hands around my waist. (can anyone tell that i like him?)
I told Johnny about Adam, and I warned Adam that I am best friends with my ex boyfriend but theres no feelings there. Johnny and I have just this unbelievable friendship where I can talk to him about anything and hes totally honest with me. I tell him about my dates, my sex life, how many guys ive been with since him. How im doing in skool, how my life is going. I just love this kid so much as a human being. Im glad that I dated him for so long. I just knew that it wasnt gonna end up in marriage. I know that he's not the right one but when he finds that girl she'll be so incredibly lucky. I cannot say a bad thing about Johnny, hes my best friend.
My parent's still have no idea about Adam. I just go out, I never say who I am with. Lol they are gonna be surprised. Yeah mom, Dad this is Adam. Then when he's not around they'll ask me questions about him. Then i'll tell them that he's my "boyfriend" My parents dont even know about Chris. LOL yeah they know about him but they dont know any of the past.
I wasn't expecting this to happen but as Alexis (the guy) said me, you dont find love it finds you. Or something along those lines. I just like Adam A LOT. for only knowing him a short period of time, we have gotten along super well. Kekeke Im so giggly, I just like the fact that Im not being used for sex on this one. Anyone can have sex. I really want a relationship again. I really want that feeling of knowing that I have someone. I've really missed it.
I need to upload my pictures from my digital camera. PSH wasting batteries like hardcore with the digital get down. I need to find my camera first. I need to pee so badly. Im not even tired. FUCK its 4 am. I went to bed at like 12. Got up at 3. I guess i might as well stay up and fix my sleeping pattern. I love my mommy who got me soymilk. I want to go to LA today to take pictures of the buildings. I am just so happy. I guess everything will be ok.
I miss Johnny so much. BLAH why did he have to start skool so soon?? not fair I wanted to spend more time with him. People think its really odd that Im best friends with my ex boyfriends. (the last two) Johnny is someone I love so much as a person I could never let him go. I mean come on I dated him pretty much from sophomore year til the first semester of Senior year. I love that kid to death. Chris, well hes just an asshole that I still talk to but I still love him as a friend
I dont know if im going back to skool next semester. I think I might go just on mondays and wednesdays. Take on or two classes. Its almost 5 am. I want to plan my day in LA and leave early :) weeeeeeee Im so excited about going to LA to take pictures. Im so excited that I live in LA. I love southern california. Its my home. Theres nothing like it in all my traveling ive ever done. Its my home. Current Mood:  excited Current Music: Till We Earned a Holiday-The Anniversary   
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Fri, Jan. 2nd, 2004 01:14 am
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So im bored. Im waiting for the day to offically begin. Todays plans. Pick up my paychecks. Go to get a pair of shoes. Go to the movies with adam.
We are seeing peter pan!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Im very excited because him and I have a running joke of pirates vs cyborgs. Then what I have no idea. Meh its gonna be nice though to hang out with someone because everyone came to see me and ALL....thanks a lot friends for making an effort for seeing me here in my state.
thank you for calling me and asking me to see how i was...thanks all of you friends. THANKS!! JERKS!!!!!!!!! <3
Your lucky I cant see you out of my left eye cuz if i could then you would all be stared down like no other
actually andre called to see how i was today. That was nice. Adam Called me. Johnny came over last nite. THANK YOU BOYS! Current Mood:  bored Current Music: Clark Gable-The Postal Service
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Sat, Dec. 20th, 2003 11:20 am
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Yesterday these two boys came in and they were there to visit Cass. One of the guys was like this guy shes kinda seeing and the other was his friend. The friend=cute and SINGLE. Im like cass hook a girl up!! Haha she said she would.
The guy text me yesterday. I havent talked to him since September. Weird
Nik's house on the 29th!! I claimed him already that is if I dont have to work
Johnny is coming over tonite to decorate the tree and watch holiday movies.
I lost in monopoly last nite to chris psss
Ive worked over 40 hours this week, and like 30 this week. No life whatsoever!!!
Im still worried about Joe!!!!
My dad bought some rum for some odd reason and He put it on the microwave and I was looking at it cuz i didnt know what it was. He saw me look at it and was like "want some?" im like no thanks
Work in 40 mins GOD LIFE SUCKS Current Mood:  sore Current Music: All My Life-Foo Fighters
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Mon, Dec. 8th, 2003 09:16 pm
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Last thanksgiving I met chris, and things changed for me. Now that everything has changed again I have decided to let him go. Not only do we constantly bicker at each other, there is just no more reason to be friends really. He's been a complete asshole to me for such a long time. I hate his girlfriend who is the biggest dumbass in the world, and I don't give a fuck if she sees this. What is going to happen? she gonna come all the way to california to beat me up? fuck that, who gives a rats ass on what our friendship was.
Chris seriously fucked up big time and especially with that last fuck up I just can't handle it anymore. I mean yeah its kinda hard letting go of something so precious as a best friend but the fact that people have been telling me to give up on the friendship was just nonsense to me at the time. Yeah he's an asshole but sometimes I can see through that. The fact that I lost all my trust in him is another story. I cannot think that what he's telling me is lies or the truth. Yeah he was there when I was in dire need of a friend but he did treat me like an asshole during those times even. I cannot help but think of the good times but our bad times just outweigh the good. Nothing is fair in life and I hope he has a wonderful life but he's not going to be involved in mine
ADIEU CHRIS CONE may new milford treat you well
♥ Jen ♥ Current Mood:  grumpy Current Music: none
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Wed, Nov. 26th, 2003 02:31 pm
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Ive been downloading like a mad woman cuz i hook up my computer to the T1 line at skool. its sooooooooo great. HAHAHA i have plenty of new music its so awesome. Ari is still alive which is good, Im so tired. Nik this kid that goes to the HS at moorpark college hes a junior, well hes like hitting on me or something. Hes asking me to hang out and stuff, and he talks to me online now. Meh.......whatever. Im tireddddddd Current Mood:  good Current Music: Her Ghost In The Fog-Cradle Of Filth
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